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A Fight
February 25, 2010


Five days from that text message. She died. My aunt past away. Eldest of three, my mother's sister. We were her closest family here in the country. I was with her in my childhood years. She moved to work overseas for over ten years. I owe a lot to her, but that scene in the hospital: I just couldn't look at her.

In my eyes, she was miserable to her life. She had no regular work. Her relationships don't last. She had a bad temper. She had to work, work, and work. That was before she left the country but I believe working as domestic help didn't do much of a favor to her. She was always hardworking. I wrote to her a lot when I was a kid. She would reply and send chocolates once or twice a year. When the mobile phone emerged, the letters disappeared. I entered high school and I remember her going back home once in two years. She would give us help for school. She was generous, but I don't know if she was happy for herself.

She came back last year. She was already diagnosed with cancer. There was opportunity for a free operation but she was afraid of it. I saw her go weak so that she was moved to Paranaque, for fares going to Makati were getting in expense. A month past, I came to visit her, but that time I witnessed she was already being picked up by an ambulance. It was a movie scene, thrilling for the rough streets but alarming for us.

A week passed, it was my turn to visit her. My tears don't want to fall. She'll survive. She can't talk already. She was very weak. Tubes going in and out of her system, but still, a little hope.

She died. I don't know how she lived a life. I have so many questions. I admit, we were of the same fate. I can't contain my sadness but still it's a shock.

You were loved.






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